13 Weeks

I had an interesting day yesterday. I went into a little panic and was overwhelmed by OMG! Is the baby still in there? I felt that I hadn't been gaining any weight and my belly still wasn't growing much, I didn't have any morning sickness, my breast tenderness is gone, what if the baby didn't make it?! So I called the doctors office yesterday and they got me in. There was no way I could wait another 2 1/2 weeks to see the doctor without knowing! They took my blood pressure and that was high at 169/80. Then the doctor came in, of course over a half hour late and I know my blood pressure is even higher as anxiety is now getting the best of me. We discussed my worries and said everything I have described is NORMAL. Well I don't know these things as I've never made it to 13 weeks before. So to ease my crazy mind more, he did an ultra sound. Jason was right there with me the whole time. Everything looked great and the baby was getting even bigger. A lot of movement, the doctor was asking me, do you feel that? NO, I wish I could! But the baby was fine and with hiccups again. I felt this huge weight off my shoulders and I cried. Why am I stressing soooo much?! I really wish I would stop! The doctor wanted my blood pressure checked again before I left and it was back down to 132/81. Much better. What a day! I have a terrible picture of the little one and it's so bad you can't tell what part your looking at. So I'll wait to post another picture until I get a good one you can actually see the baby. Today, I feel good. Jason is relieved and I have calmed back down knowing my baby is still in there doing well and moving around a lot. What a relief! I can't wait until November 19th to see the baby again!